im flattered?

ok...lets start with i really didn't want to msg bioboii but cheng made me do it? ok. so i guess i did want to msg and also i thought i was going to get a reply so i just msg-ed. we were supposed 2 go 2 monash for film studies, so the idea was that if he was free, i will just hang out with him. but he never replied me. so yea. but anyway, i went for film studies. im not too bummed abt him not replying me...maybe just a little la....but cheng was telling me that i need a man and not a boy. a 20 year old boy that is. i don't need him. i need a fucking man. so yea. anyway, i was on9 just now....and yasser a.k.a mauritius boy was chatting with me...then..udaya..some random dude from fb was also chatting with me la...lets start with udaya 1st, he wanted my number and he wants me 2 set 2 of his cuz up with any 2 indian friends i have...lol..not exactly set up, but just 2 hang out? i honestly don't mind...i think...and he also asked me to teman him for this sunway indian cultural night thinggy that is supposed 2 be on the 4th of april...and i knew nuts about it until he told me. so yea...he was asking a lot la...and i wonder why bio boii can't do the same...sigh...ok now for yasser, he starts talking casually, and i just take cheng's advice (she told me to be happy that someone finds me attractive and not be a....bitch? abt it). so yea, i was acting totally cool and just chatting with him normally, and he starts asking when are we (him and me) going to hang out. so i said maybe for lunch sometime...then he asks me if i have a bf so i just say no. then he says good, wait and see how im going to stick to you now. then after some random talk, he says i dunno how to tell you this but i really like you. and he asked me why i don't see it. and i was so bloody dumbstruck. i really didn't know what to say. and he also said im cute..so yea..i just said thank you and that im flattered he likes me...and he says...whats with you jananie? im telling you i like you and you say im flattered. you are so plain and not romantic....ahah...yes...im really disturbed right now.oh here's a bit of the convo...

yasser says:

i'll tc of u

yasser says:

I say:

err...ok

I say:

haha

yasser says:

u dnt want me to tc of u ?

I say:

i can tc of myself..haha

I say:

imma big girl

I say:

n an independent one at that

yasser says:

i knw

yasser says:
ok let me be clear

yasser says:
i wanna go out wid u

yasser says:
i wanna tc of you as no one else did

yasser says:
i knw its not a yes answer

yasser says:
but

yasser says:
u can think abt it

I say:

r u serious?

yasser says:

ya am serious

yasser says:

reli serious

yasser says:

thats y am tryin to explain u all this time

yasser says:

but u dnt understand

FUCK THIS SHIT

suddenly what navin told me is ringing in my ear..."your someone will come looking for you.." yasser is nice..but no he is not my bf material. and i don't fucking know him. and he is probably way too nice for me anyway. why the hell am i getting all the attention from guys that i could care less about? sigh. as flattered as i am, im not happy. i hate this. suddenly the hyperness that i felt yesterday is gone...POOF! it's fucking gone!!

i hate this feeling...not the flattered feeling, but i feel something else...and it's just not fucking right!