happynesz xP

weeee...guess what...no i did not bump into bio boii or talk to him, but he did reply me on fb. i had wished him happy bday :) and he replied thanks. not much. but still. it's something to me. now im wondering if i should send a 2nd comment saying, "hey, i saw u yesterday in the monash library!"
i mean he could have just answered my comment cos i wished him, so it's only polite to say thaks right? WHAT IF he doesn't reply my 2nd comment? haha...guess who's turning over a new leaf? ME! haha...like i said, i don't wanna be living with WHAT IF's, so this baby is just gonna send that comment.actually, if i don't see him on9 tonight, only then will i hit the send button. cos i would prefer to talk to him rather then send msg-es. well, it's kinda sad that our convos are limited to fb and msn. i don't have his number. thats the 3rd challenge. getting his number. but im gonna focus on this 1st task :) 2nd comment on fb :) hehe..the 2nd challenge would be to ask him out for lunch or something. haha...where did this new found confidence come from? from my absofuckinlutely amazing awesome friends! yay! i love u all so bloody freaking much! i do i seriously do! and this time, it's not gonna be all talk and no action baby! eiii....dun get the wrong idea okay. im not gonna do anything u guys won't do as 1st timers la! haha..what i meant was, im not gonna talk all big then chicken out when i see him or something like what i used to do. this time it's gonna be different. when i see him, i will walk up to him, i honestly don't care if he is with a guy, girl, homo, trans..etc..nobody is getting in my way. im gonna be a bitch remember! a tough one at that! go jan! just go and say hi...haha...dunno when that's gonna happen though. but it will. cos jans making her way in :)

broken

cheng and i paid a visit to monash today! i know what you guys are probably thinking, that i might have talked to bio boii and made some kinda move right...that is if i bumped into him la...
well, guess what, we passed by each other twice, but we never looked or spoke to each other. WTF is wrong with me?!? im so fucking annnoyed and pissed with myself. i know i said i would talk to him the next time i see him, but i just couldn't! and to make things even worse, he was touring the campus with a girl! i know i know she might just be a friend, but i can't help being depressed. im so fucking screwed up. so much for he being the one with issues. i have major confidence issues to deal with here. and this is just going to be a MAJOR problem. im so annoyed with myself right now i don't know what to do. i need some self esteem booster. right now! im feeling so down right now. i know krunz will want to throw all her thick med books at me. i feel like hitting myself. *hits self*
damn, what is wrong with me? i know i always say that i don't care about what people think, but the thing is i do! i hate to admit this but i fucking do care about what people think and i hate myself for this. i really need to change my thinking. im so bloody screwed up im never getting a chance with anybody if i don't give it a shot. i just have to take a chance. i have to. there is no point in just complaining and not doing anything to fix this major issue! yes, i have to do something....i just need people to tell me that what im doing is alright and not screwed up. sigh.

and the madness begins!

i woke up today (23rd feb) thinking how sucky things could get cause i had to get to uni very early. I'm traveling with a friend, and she just has to have moral studies first thing in the morning...at 8.30am! and the next lecture was supposed to be at 11.30am! so yea, i THOUGHT i had 3 hours of emptiness to fill. we were at college before 8.3o, and i decided to join her for mos since my nothingness had to be filled. so there we were at the auditorium with a few other students. ms annie was late so we decided to take a walk. when we came back we realized that mos only starts the following week for the biz students. damn! i woke up so early for nothing? and thats where i was wrong....hehehe... yee cheng suggested, "hey, shall we go monash?"

jan says, "OMG YES!!! come lets go!".
so we were off, to monash....lalalalala....hehehe...the seniors at monash we very nice and pleasant. everyone was like hey...welcome to monash! haha..they assumed we were new students who were there for the orientation. the course lines at monash were extremely long! and somehow i just wanted to join monash and be away from sunway :S i found ven, gawd we were so excited to see each other! haha...the senior students were walking around armed with stickers. they came up to us and asked what course we were doing. then they asked my name. i replied, and the senior turned and looked at me, and she was like, "are u sri lankan?" hahaha..that was so hilarious! i told her no and she wrote my name down on the sticker and stuck it on my t- shirt. then there was another senior, "are you doin biz?"
jan says, "yes i am". i just forgot to mention the part where i was doing biz at VU and not at monash. so senior gives jan and ven a blue sticker. we proudly showcased it..haha. oh...and i spotted bio boii xP i literally melted....hahaha...i was going just a little bit crazy, hehe...haihz..he was smoking hottt! ven kept saying he was a jerk....haha..and yee cheng said that he was toooo thin! he was wearing a white t-shirt and he looked AMAZING...haha..ok, getting carried away here...and then i lost him! damn! oh and i met this another sri lankan chick who also asked me if i was sri lankan...haha...then ven and i were off attending ori. i couldnt see him anywhere in the theatre. issh!it was so big and the place was crawling away with students. we spent most of the ori time catching up. it was so bloody nice to talk to ven after so bloody long! after ori we came out and there was this baskin robbins truck. we obviously got excited. but it didnt look like they were giving away free ice creams :( but there was FREE j co doughnuts! woohoo! haha...we had one each, then i was on the lookout for bio boii AGAIN! we were standing in front of the info centre i think, and i saw this guy on the 2nd floor of the info centre, and i started jumping up and down. ven was like, "bio boii? he so saw you la".
*jan continues jumping up and down*
we had to get into that place cause ven had to pay her fees, and guess who comes out? BIO BOII look alike! farkkkkk! shit! damn disapponting weii..i so bloody thought it was him! but it was some punjabi dude...damn!i followed ven, but then i had to get out cause it was already 11.15am and i had a lecture in 15 freaking minutes! i was hoping to bump into bio boii but i couldnt spot him :(:(:( as i left monash, i was mentally hitting myself on the head with a hammer! i should have talked to him when i had the chance! damn myself! *hits head harder*
anyways, yee cheng asked me about him, so i summarised the whole story...she told me that if she were me, she would have gotten his number by now....haha...wtf...well, she mentioned that her friend is also gonna be doing med, so she could ask him for his timetable. and this of course would help me coordinate my visiting hours to monash....wtf..haha...*drumroll* and the madness begins xP

sSSshHhhH....

happy birthday bio boii xP

happy birthday baby

baby if u were still here,
you know that we would have celebrated together once more this year,
but baby now that you are no longer here,
i feel your loss and it hurts like hell right here,
baby the pain is just so intense,
my thoughts get all tousled and tensed,
but baby part of me wishes things remain just as they are,
cos you would be reliving the pain if you were still here,
baby all i need you to know is that i love you always,
and whatever shit happens your memories will never fade...
Happy Birthday Charan

21st Feb 1992-3rd May 2008

the power of j =)

Rules:
It's harder than it looks! Copy to your own note, erase my answers, enter yours, and tag twenty people.
Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real...nothing made up! If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers. You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name question.


1. What is your name: jananie :)


2. A four Letter Word: jade?


3. A boy's Name: joshua.....(i would prefer bio boii's name though =.=)


4. A girl's Name: juliette


5. An occupation: haha..ok...janitor? :S


6. A color: jasmine =)


7. Something you'll wear: japanese slippers?? hahaha XD


8. A food: jelly beans!


9. Something found in the bathroom: johnson and johnson baby shampoo xP


10. A place: jelapang


11. A reason for being late: jogged like a crazy fool


12. Something you'd shout: jack ass!!!!


13. A movie title: jumanji


14. Something you drink: juice xP


15. A musical group: jonas brothers!


16. An animal: jaguar!


17. A street name: Jalan ss3...hahahha!


18. A type of car: jaguar? xP


19. The title of a song: just dance- lady gaga

i tag:
sarah :)
and only sarah cos im lazeeee :)

shez gone!!! hallelujah!

shez effin gone! hahahahah...my stoopid annoying dumb effin cousin who just knows how to annoy the living daylights and the dead moonlights outta me is gone! to bangi! she got a better job offer there....and she will be staying with some family friends of hers! yay! let her go annoy the living daylights and the dead moonlights outta them now! woohoo! its time to partay! i have my room back...my privacy back..the most important thing, i have my peace of mind! woohoo! if she ever...EVER comes back to stay with us, that stupid nut will most certainly not get to share my room...ishh...let that annoying bigotch put up somewhere else. yay yay! so so happy!!!!

happy valentines!

OMFG...i talked to bio boii. just before 14th feb ended! i know i said i would wait for his birthday, but i couldn't help it. and besides, krunz gave me moral support xP
so yea...his pm was "dear :)" so obviously, i was like WTF?!? haha...i was wondering who is dear la...so i just asked...dear? and he said its for fun. yay! i started the convo! hahaha.... *excitednesz* so the convo goes fine and all..he wished me happey valentines! *exciteznesz* and obviously i wished him back XD but initially, i didn't think he would wish me at all, and i wasn't gonna wish him as well. i was asking him if he trynna pikat any girls or if any girls trynna pikat him *hint* haha. he seems to be so not the confident kind..about his looks. he asked me why would any girl want to pikat him. so i said it! i actually said it! "eii...cute wat!" OMFG. jan said it. hhaha..."cute means ugly but adorable". he is so extremely lame =.=
then i say, " so that means the line is clear for me?"
he says, "pretty clear".
*jans jumping up and down*
he says, "what line?"
*jan drops on the floor with a loud thud....=.=*
jan says, "wait, what line you talking about?"
he says, "i dunno i just said pretty clear"
*jan bangs head onto nearest wall*
jan says, " haha..ure so blurr..u said no girl is hitting on u so the line is clear for me la! hahaha".
i didn't forget to add the haha at the back...never forget the haha. god bless haha....lol
he says, "u serious ah? y would u wanna hit on an ugly and unattractive dude. u deserve better".
(note: this is the exact same thing sarah said to me, that i deserve better =.=)
like WTF? hahaha....well...anyways..i strongly stated that he is NOT ugly or unattractive. i told him i will just stick with handsome :P then i said haha.....lol
so yea....OMG...then after that bla bla bla....
he says, "have you had a bf b4?"
OMFG.....i was supposed to ask that question but i just kept putting it off and he asked! *excitednesz**hilariounesz* crazynesz*...im feeling all the havocnesz right now. massive havocnesz! lol
so i said no...and bla bla bla....then i asked if he had one..
he says, " i never had an official one".
jan says, " so u have had unofficial ones? hahaha".
then he dc-ed...hahah...that was basically todays convo...kind of fun xP but he just had to get disconnected so many freakin times! krunz says god is testing me....yeah right...haha
god is gonna get whacked if he keeps testing me like this XD
*jumps up and down*
*stops jumping, runs to lappy and says " i have to blog about this!"*

what game are we playing?

OK...I'm only blogging cos krunz asked me too....
so...lets see...i think i may be imagining this...but does bio boii only appear online when i do? or is this just a coincidence? this is so disturbing...you see...my msn is screwed up. i can never stay online for longer than 5 minutes? then i get disconnected. on very rare occasions...usually when im not chatting at all...thats when my connection stays stable. so screwed up right??? sigh...
so yeah...i usually sign in on msn and appear offline just to see who is online...and if they are worth spending any time on =.= wtf...ok yea..thats what i usually do la..
then if there is anyone online worth chatting with, i usually sign in using ebuddy. most of the time i appear online. i only appear off9 when i KNOW a certain some "friends" ARE gonna annoy the living daylights outta me! they tend to do that EVERYTIME i come on9! hello...go get a life la! how sad that those one two "friends" wont be able to read this post =.=
anyways, so yea..these past few days, when i signed in using msn at 1st, no bio boii in sight. then in less than 30 seconds im signed in using e buddy...n guess who drops outta the sky??? BIO BOII!!! so am i imagining this? or this just happens to be a coincidence that the useless boii and i sign in at the same time? i really dunno ( oh btw, he also appears on9 on facebook only AFTER i sign in=.=)...but ven thinks he wants me to start the conversation. to hell with that! it is like so freaking hard to penetrate through this guys head. when we converse, im the one asking questions. and how many times am i supposed to start the conversation huh??? yes, im aware that i, JANANIE MUTHUKUMARAN is the one obsessed with this guy. but this is so tiring. it's like we are playing a game here. and i don't want to waste my time playing if im the only one talking and he is the only one listening....am i making sense?
i mean both parties should talk right? yes yes...im still keeping in mind that im the obsessed party, but but but...i can't just jump up and say i like you! hahahax....this is so crazy....i wish all the guys would just have like this meter thing affixed to their ugly heads. this meter thing would work as a mind reader, since none of us can actually read minds unless we are a bomoh or some one with extraordinary powers like the cast of heroes or god maybe...
so this meter, it would be able to measure the hormone levels in our blood. then it translates our funny body chemistry language in english/malay (whatever preferred language) and whatever the results are, they are posted on the meter display! wallah! it would look just like a parking meter, maybe better, since my meter device is only imaginary. if one could actually invent some device like this, it would be a breakthrough in science! SERIOUSLY! stop laughing. this is no joke people. you have to take me seriously. IF this device can be invented, can you imagine the number of people who will be willing to pay millions...ok..maybe millions is a bit over the top. thousands. can you imagine the number of people who will be willing to fork out thousands of dollars to own this device. either to affix it onto the head of a loved one or to affix it on top of their own heads to let that someone know how they feel. throw love aside. do you how many people can tell each other how much they hate another person without actually telling them? but showing it to them....hahax...im such a genius. some day im gonna be awarded for my future nobel prize idea. and you guys are not gonna be laughing.IM STILL SERIOUS.
leave my bright idea aside for now since its just that, an idea. we need to find out whats in this guys head! I NEED TO FIND OUT!!!
what do you guys think?
A) does bio boii want me to start the conversation
B) is bio boii and me signing in at the same time just a coincidence, or...
C) am i going nuts and overly obsessing with this guy :(